Faith Over Worry

Sister, you can’t worry AND rely on faith at the same time. You’ve been worrying, and that’s fine. Now…enough of that. Remember that worry places focus on the worst possible outcomes. Faith focuses on desirable outcomes. Which should fill your head and heart? Lean on your faith, even if you only have a little. #mustardseedfaith

Exposure Therapy

Exposure Therapy. Do y’all know what that is? It’s what it sounds like. It’s when you’re forced to do something, face something, experience something, to be able to move past it. You move past it by exposing yourself to it, then realizing nothing really comes of it as you had imagined might. *poof* It’s likeContinue reading “Exposure Therapy”

Suicide Prevention: The Blame Game

If you’ve been following our story as part of Suicide Prevention Month, you’ve heard me mention the Blame Game. I blamed myself. I blamed the world. I blamed myself. I blamed teenage angst. I blamed myself. I blamed hormones. I blamed myself. Blaming myself seemed natural. I birthed her. I fed her and rocked her.Continue reading “Suicide Prevention: The Blame Game”

Suicide Prevention Month:  Our Story Continues

Trigger Warning: Mental health struggles and suicidal thoughts can be difficult to process. If you might be triggered, please skip this post. When I talk about our mental health struggles with anybody, I get a number of questions and responses… Nope, not of that.  Yes, she is a beautiful, happy girl.  Her daddy and IContinue reading “Suicide Prevention Month:  Our Story Continues”

Suicide Prevention Month: Our Story Begins

Here’s the scoop on mental health problems…they suck. I think we’re now prepared to share some of our experience with mental health challenges and suicidal ideation, but be warned. It’s hard and sad and awful. I am bringing it to my blog, because September is Suicide Prevention Month. We are a few weeks into theContinue reading “Suicide Prevention Month: Our Story Begins”

What does your anxiety look like?

What does your anxiety look like? This morning, mine looks like a super muddled, very chaotic brain, the beginnings of a headache, and restlessness. So I got up, took some medicine, and made coffee. In an effort to try and settle my brain, I keep reminding myself… Your thoughts are running away with you. Don’tContinue reading “What does your anxiety look like?”

The Spot

It was July 22, 2015, when we found out Keith had colon cancer. The doctor called us on the phone after a routine colonoscopy. We were standing outside in the yard when I put the phone on speaker so we could both hear what he had to say. It was seventy-hundred degrees, and sweat drippedContinue reading “The Spot”

Internal Dialog…Try Harder

My internal dialog just this morning… Amanda, take your probiotic. Your gut is a mess. You haven’t been eating right at all. No wonder you feel like crap. Speaking of that, go prep tonight’s food. You’ll be glad you did. Aren’t you glad you bought groceries? Now eat right, and quit wondering why your bodyContinue reading “Internal Dialog…Try Harder”

She’s 14. I’m 46. Both learning.

She’s always nervous about walking into an event. I did the same thing when I was 14. When I watch her get out of the car, gather up her things, and nervously shut the door, I remember what it was like. As she crosses in front of my car, chews at her fingernail, and lookContinue reading “She’s 14. I’m 46. Both learning.”