Keith and I are praying over a host of notes I made this morning about my condition, my deficits, and my concerns.
Taking brain surgery off the table, at least temporarily, was not on my dance card. I am sorely dejected.
There is probably not a “right” thing to do…I don’t know. I just feel it in my bones that it should happen sooner than later. Delaying another month or so while we watch and wait scares me.
Am I an expert? No.
Are these practitioners sooo much smarter than me? Of course!
In the midst of facing down Goliath, though, I just need a single stone. I am willing to take the risks of surgery now.
Perhaps these thoughts are too deeply personal. Maybe I’m over-sharing. I don’t necessarily need opinions or guidance because all of it already has my mind so garbled.
My mind is in an awful twist today, so I needed a vent…
… and I need lots of intervention in prayer. So if you don’t mind joining me…
> cover this screen of notes I have thoughtfully written, breathe life into them, and give them credence, as I attempt to discuss them with my practitioners.
> pray for open minds and open hearts as all factors are considered.
> Pray that a way might be made for brain surgery sooner than later to help reduce my deficits and give me a little bit better quality of life in the near future. I would really not like to leave the hospital without it. (I’m being very bold in my prayers.)
> Pray that whatever comes, I can confidently ride the wave of faith, not doubt God’s plan, and be present for what He has planned for me
> Pray for all the practitioners and hands in the game who will make decisions on my behalf.
Thank you for loving me.
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Amanda Herring, Writer