Girl, why are you struggling so hard to take care of yourself? Why are you chasing that thing that has always calmed you down? What you used to do to feel better? How you have coped before?
You’re not the same person.
You are not the same woman you were 10 years ago, 5 years ago, or even 2 years ago. Hell, I’m not the same chick I was in January, and it’s only April! We are wiser. We have been kicked around. We love deeper. Our minds are sharper. We are more discerning. Our bodies ain’t the same. We care about different stuff now. We put up with less mess, but we are affected by more things than ever.

Stop struggling. Change your self care.
Who are you NOW? What does THAT girl need? Where is THAT girl headed? Have you embraced who you are NOW? When was the last time you took an inventory on who THAT girl really is? Chasing those methods and means that helped you get by years ago is fruitless. You need to honor your current self and help HER be the best she can be.
Get to know the current you, and take care of her. Watch her evolve, and try to keep up.
You’re not the same. You shouldn’t be treating yourself the same.
Somebody needed to hear this today. I got you.