Lovely People, we have ourselves a bit of a situation…
Yesterday, we learned that my tumor is back.
Yep, it’s about the size of a marble, sitting there as pretty as you please adjacent to the original surgery site.
It came back very fast. Usually, glioblastoma brain tumors pop up again in 6-9 months. We aren’t sure why it’s back so soon, particularly with all the chemo, radiation, and Optune.
It doesn’t matter.
We are fighting, right? Get knocked down 7 times, stand up 8. That’s the plan.
Another craniotomy is set for Tuesday, June 24th. We will head back to Methodist University and cut this thing out, as well as utilize the “gamma knife” procedure. Gamma Knife is a very specialized, targeted radiation that will zap the site after the tumor is surgically removed.
The neurosurgeon will go through the same incision as before and grab it, then radiate the area up close.
I’m here for it. I really am.
Do I understand why all this is happening to me? No.
But I was thinking about the lyrics of a church song I’ve robotically sung my whole life…
“Wherever He leads, I’ll go.”
Will I? Do I have the capacity to blindly, yet faithfully follow? I pondered that thought a long time this morning, and…
Yes, I do!
Before I walk out my front door, I’ll hit that Superman pose just like last time. I’ll slide into the hospital and into the Operating Room like a warrior, boss up, and do this thing.
Because He’s got me. I’ll follow Him.
And I’ve got all of you. You have my back.
I included the meme about being a Queen with some gangster and a little psycho, because YES, I FREAKING AM. I have learned that I dang well better be if I’m going to survive at all, a day, a week, a year.
And look at that stupid, little marble up there. That’s yet another bad guy to destroy in order to level up in this ridiculous and clearly unrelenting cancer game I’ve been forced to play.
Y’all keep praying. Pray for BIG, awesome miracles. Our God has no limits…and wherever He leads, I’ll go.
I love y’all. I’ll keep you posted on surgery deets. I’ll have to get off blood thinner, chemo, and Optune as it all approaches.
New Countdown: 21 Days
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